Tuesday, June 24, 2008

growth...

since our move, i have spent a lot of time reflecting on our situation. as i have shared, this has not been easy for me. i resist change probably more than anything else in my life so the fact that this whole thing turned out to be a reality still blows my mind...but i feel like i am being led down this path for a reason.

as i joined the "blogging" world, i have been exposed to some incredible people. there are so many men & women that show unmatched strength in times of adversity, unwavering faith in times of uncertainty, and immense love for God and others in times of deep sorrow. you can't help but be changed by these "strangers"...and even more, you can't help but feel that you know these people...because really, we all walk down similar paths.

i have cried tears for mommies that have lost their babies all too soon, i have rejoiced for families that were granted a few more precious moments together, i have laughed at the antics of another child whom i will never know, and i have questioned my purpose on this journey. just when you think that you have been dealt a swift blow...someone always seems to have it a little bit worse.

things are stirring in my soul. i am not quite sure what message i should be hearing...but i am trying to listen. i know i want to make a difference in people's lives...outside of loving every minute of being a wife and a mother. i also know that i want to be "awake" for the "difference" happening in my life. i don't want to miss opportunities to grow spiritually, physically, & emotionally.

thank you to all my "blogging" friends...many of you don't even know that i "know" you...and even more of you don't even have any idea what an impact you have on my heart and mind. i know i am growing because of you...like a tiny seed that drinks in every drop of water offered.

life would be nothing without friends...those known and unknown.

thank you God for all the blessings in my life. help me to see things more clearly and trust that the prayers of my heart are being heard...& that i will accept Your plan above all others. i have so much to be thankful for...i don't want to waste the beauty that surrounds me.

3 comments:

Kari said...

Thank you so much for the compliments on the kiddos...they are two very special and precious people in my life!!! Glad you visited my blog too...I check yours out several times a week! The girls are beautiful and growing like crazy. I'm glad you are finding some sort of peace about your situation...like the saying goes "nothing is permanent" and I know when the time is right, your family will make it's way back to good ole' Arkansas!

Meredith for the Davis' said...

mere, may your prayer be mine as well. your heart words make me think of psalm 27...
...this is what i seek that i may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in His temple.
...my heart says of you, "SEEK HIS FACE!" your face Lord i will seek.
...teach me your way, o Lord; lead me in a straight path.
...wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.

i love you, my mere. my heart smiles to think of you and jeff and the girls and the plans He has in store for ya'll...for us all!! i can't wait to see you (and maddieboo)end of july...hurry, hurry month end! don't forget, i have a sonic in very close proximity to my little house :) XOXO

karamy3sons said...

Meredith,

What a sweet blog! I wanted to thank you for being such a great inspiration. There are days when my 3 boys have worn me down, and I go to your blog and read all of the sweet, kinds words that you have for your family. Very Encouraging!
I am praying that the Lord will show you which child that He has chosen for you and your family to support! Thanks for taking the Compassion Challenge!
In Christ,
Kara-John 3:30